Healthy relationships nourish and support us. Like poison, a toxic relationship is one that is damaging to us. Instead of uplifting us, it makes us feel worse. When it ends, we might experience post-traumatic stress or a lessening of our self-esteem and trust in ourselves and others.
Although friends and family might tell us to leave, it can be hard to let go, despite the fact that the relationship is harmful and painful.
In a survey conducted by Glamour Magazine in 2011, 60 percent of women 18-35 years old said that they’d experienced abuse. About half were in a physically abusive relationship, but don’t underestimate the damage of emotional abuse. It’s more predictive of stress and depression than physical abuse, which is almost always preceded by emotional abuse.1 It’s not uncommon for people to minimize, deny, or rationalize their pain and unmet needs and thus stay in a toxic relationship. In so doing, they underestimate the real consequences to their mental and physical health, including increased stress and depression.
Some signs that you may be in a toxic relationship are:
You feel drained or starved instead of nourished.
Your behavior is motivated by fear, anger, or guilt.
Your needs and feelings are ignored.
You “walk on egg-shells,” for fear of upsetting your partner.
You frequently feel used, exploited, or disrespected.
Any of the following behaviors are symptomatic of a toxic relationship:
Violence (including physical and sexual abuse or property damage)
Frequent or big mood swings
Misappropriation of money or property
Emotional Abuse ( including frequent verbal abuse and manipulative, belittling, controlling, punishing, or withholding behavior)
If you’re experiencing any of these signs or symptoms, don’t keep it secret. If you or a child is being physically abused, get help and access to safety immediately. Talk to someone you trust and seek professional help - ideally in couple therapy. However, if there is violence or coercion, individual counseling for each partner is preferred. If your partner is unwilling to get individual help to attend conjoint sessions, get individual help. A relationship can change when only one person is in counseling.
By not reacting, and learning to trust yourself, speak up, and set boundaries, the toxic patterns in your relationship can improve. Meanwhile, keep a journal of your feelings. Observe and note your partner’s behavior, how it makes you feel, what is said and what you’d like to say. Take action to build your self-esteem and learn how to be assertive. You will need support in making changes. Consider whether you both are willing to do about it.
By getting help, your self-esteem will increase, and you will gain the confidence to better cope with the relationship or leave. Once it's over, although you may feel relief and not even miss your ex. However, you might still need professional help to rebuild your self-esteem, learn effective communication skills, and heal from the detrimental effects of the relationship. This frees you to once again trust yourself and others and to have a healthy, loving relationship in the future.